This past week I have been crazy busy biting off a little more than I can chew when it comes to working as an unpaid intern for everyone. It has been fantastic receiving all of these opportunities to help out on sets and to be a PA (production assistant) but it has also been SO HARD because everyone else can count on that they're being paid but I am an unpaid employee who can joke around with everyone that they are getting paid to do all the hard things...and then I awkwardly realize inside that I'm not. ha.

Doing everything for free is the hardest part about starting any dream.

I mean, I am currently looking for any type of media job that could give me experience while helping me to add in my part of our family's income (feel free to point me in a direction people) and you have to be doing things for free in the film industry so people can see that you work hard and deserve to get paid! Which I do. Just saying. But now people are taking full advantage of an eager intern and I love them asking but I also forget how I have work and will be having school soon and it just gets a little crazy sometimes. Also, through my experiences thus far in film, I now know I do not in anyway want to stay at the bottom of the food chain. It is fun to run around as a PA or an extra with the other PA's and extras but it is not fun when you are regarded as so little, aren't noticed, and pretty much the scum of the earth. Just kidding...well not really...but all the film sets in Utah aren't too bad but I am nervous for outside of the bubble. BUT I COULDN'T FEEL MORE AT HOME!

When I walk on to any set I just get chills in realizing I'm doing exactly what I should be doing and what I've always dreamed of doing. I hope everyone at some point can get that feeling of "wow, this is me, and this is perfect, and I want to always feel like this." I have gotten the chance to really scratch the surface of this industry and met fantastic people that have really taken me under their wing and personally made it so I could get some great experience. School will be starting up again soon (sigh) but I'm excited to start in my program studying film and to start down the path of producing!

Anyways, this is my little post for the week and I am getting so sad that my internship is almost over when I feel like I just started out! But I am beyond excited to really get going on my own ideas! *cue evil laughter* But really, lots of the work for the first part of the program is having to make our own projects, videos, and scripts so I am excited to get started on the madness in my mind and to try and create something fantastic:)

Well, that's it for this week folks, and I'm guessing some of you are about to jump ship in realizing that I actually might be a little crazier than your liking but it's alright, Cest la vie, no?

Jessi Hope