WELCOME BACK TO THE ROARING 20'S!

When people ask me which decade I could have seen myself in, my first choice was always the 1920's. This was mostly because the fashion design did the most in all the best ways. I'm pretty sure that I could have out done any other Daisy or Jordan of the time with what I could have come up with...and I hope there are fellow bookworms or anyone of the sort that could catch my reference. As a hint, think of someone who has the synonym for mighty in his name and his shorter lived life revolved around following a figurative green light to a mirage of a woman he once knew.

Ok, let me bring myself back since it has been too long since I posted some new thoughts and findings. Which consequently falls right in with my typical behavior. I tend to do things on the cusp of procrastination, but they always end up being right on time!

So let's hit it.

This new year has been weighing on me for weeks as I've thought about everything that has happened, and more importantly what I wish and will work to make happen for 2020. On one hand I have loved just sitting and reminiscing on amazing moments spent with my partner, my puppers Max (who gives me more attitude every day), and all of my loved humans who showed up on varying pages in Jessi's 2019 story. However It is so humbling to remember how much I dreamed about and desired my twenties to claim my independence and build my own life. Now here I am, not only surviving, but also doing and expanding good things beyond what I could have imagined. Strange, I know. Nowadays it almost feels like people want to hold on to their dependence for as long as possible to best conserve their resources and energy until absolutely necessary, and when they feel prepared to take off. Which is definitely a valid plan! However, seeing as this is my personal blog that you have graciously visited to read my witty and pretty transparent sass...I just have to say that it feels damn good to put my own crown on my head. Does that make sense? Probably not. Let me try again.

I am tilting my head up at all of the past New Years where I was growing up and learning, all the way back to my 18 year old self. At times it was extremely hard to understand the new year. I didn't know why certain things were happening, where the opportunities were, how I could heal from things that tore me up inside, and most importantly, how I could put my crown back on when I didn't see the royalty in the mirror. This past year alone has dealt primarily with teaching myself to know that it is okay to be who I am. My personality, self worth, work ethic, mental illness, ALL OF IT, was not determined by anyone else, even those in business. The months can really become trying when we do not see what is coming or fully understand the places we may be traveling in. Nonetheless, this new solar cycle can be a reminder to all of us that we do not have to wait for permission to create our goals and truly rise to our personal occasions. We have the capacity to continue our journeys with fresh eyes that see new potential and adventures.

Now that the year has begun, I am gazing into the looking glass at my goals, destinations, aspirations, and those in the close proximity of my world. Other than that, there is blank space and room for the impossible and fantastic to happen (exciting or trying), to really fuel my courage and drive to keep growing and believing in the beautiful human in the mirror. More electric and amazing possibilities are available for all of you beautiful readers the same as with me. Just the action of you taking the time to read my post and allow me to be my authentic and true self can attract the good, and in turn, it leaves room for all of you to find that same authenticity for your own lives and goals.

I will continue to tell my story and life's mission as an advocate for all of you lovelies, and people all around. The here and now is a great time to dive into yourselves, regrow and build healthy pathways to leave behind what does not serve you, and work each day to find your mentally fit and emotionally strong awareness for life. It can be frustrating when all of the best intentions and efforts seemingly go unrewarded. Even more so when the hard, slow, draggy, or even stifling days are still around. I know first hand about those moments that happen ALL THE TIME, and it is the worst that I cannot provide some kind of magic solution for endurance or patience...trust me, those traits will be a lifelong learning curve (at least for me). Even so, I still purposely and actively take time to think about what is happening on the inside, understand what I'm feeling, accept that I have a right to those feels, and then I can work to discern how to move forward out of the funk and just let go. The timing will vary and be very specific for each situation. Just trust your right to be you and to learn at your pace in your way. Let that crown sit honey, you'll figure it out.

This midweek-ish New Year's post hits at kind of a weird time, but I am stoked for all that I learned and accomplished in 2019, and the MAJOR developments and happenings that are going to decorate my 2020. You all ain't seen nothing yet.

CHEERS MY FRIENDS.

Sincerely,

Jessi Hope