The Brilliance of Being 20 Something

Hello beautiful humans,

I have been having a wonderful full moon in Capricorn day full of rest and recovery. I'm not sure how familiar you are with astrology but it is a new thing I've discovered this year and let me tell you, I AM IN LOVE. Of course I have always loved concepts of time, the stars, and just what is out there in the expanse of space. However this year I came across what a birth chart is, and how you can take the date, time of your birth, and birthplace to see the positioning of astrological elements on that day. From there, each planet, zodiac sign, and their placements in your 12 houses can then give you an incredible look into what you value, your strengths and weaknesses, and characteristics of what your life could be. Of course it is just a prediction (don't flip out if you don't like being analyzed or categorized), I am aware that each human has their own individuality constantly being influenced by our environments and upbringing...but I still have found it so fascinating! And scarily accurate. When you keep an open mind, astrology can really help clear up some grey areas that you may not even realize you don't understand in the make up of your soul.

As an example, the planet Venus is a common one that more people know. It generally rules how we love, romance, and what we value around relationships and philosophy, along with what we magnetize in life. That being said, I have Venus in Aries, which essentially means that Venus was moving through the sign of Aries at the time of my birth, which then points to the characteristics of the zodiac sign Aries that can represent what I magnetize in my life, how I love, my philosophies, and so on. Does that make at least a little sense on a basic level? Haha Astrology can have a lot going on, but when you take it in pieces, it is super fascinating...and that's my personal opinion! Seeing how the planets have their own characteristics, that then can be tied in with characteristics of the zodiac signs they were passing through, and then on the whole seeing which house they landed in, SO COOL.

Anywho, I went on a rant about astrology but I really wanted to write about how incredible our 20's are. Not only are we going through some of the largest life changes that can happen to us, but we are truly discovering who we are. I used to see that as such a burden, and still struggle with intrusive thoughts that I am "not going fast enough" or "healing quick enough" or "pulling my shit together fast enough for others". In the religious culture I was raised in, the primary aspects revolved around control, obedience, and conformity...along with a lot of guilt and shame. So rewiring my brain to allow new ways of thinking and embracing my individuality has been a trip. I am still working at it as well, but I would never go back in time and trade the freedom, relief, and self acceptance I have found in paving my own path and letting life unfold in such beauty and rhythm. If anyone else is contemplating paving your own path and finally choosing for yourself, I HIGHLY ENCOURAGE IT, and am right there with you...and if you are a spiritualist like me take it as a sign from the universe haha

For real though, it has felt like a constant uphill battle developing healthy coping mechanisms to work through trauma from my childhood, grief over loss of relationships in my life, and just building my self esteem into something sustainable. It may seem like the opposite since I post so freely here and take time for myself, but I have the dark nights of my soul as well, where I lack drive and value in who I am. Healing really can't even begin until we love ourselves truly from the inside out. I mean, I can learn all of the coping mechanisms, how to be mindful and aware of my values, but if I lack self worth, none of it will land. You have to care for the person who is healing, really see them, understand them, and that is how I am learning to view myself. Make sense? I hope so. And that is what I find so brilliant about my 20's.

Well, I as always appreciate each and every one of you that reads my words and what I have to say, you truly are seeing my soul and it feels amazing to be understood. Here's to a wonderful rest of this week and may the theme be SELF LOVE and releasing what no longer serves us.

Sincerely,

Jessi Hope